being sick feels sucky

having runny nose few days liao.. sore throat just recovered. now a bit feverish... hope quickly recover by tmr or else i'll feel sucky whole day tmr at sch. and i can't taste anything at all right now - everything's just saltish or bland.

me and zhihui were talking abt insecurity while we were having lunch. I guess being in a relationship makes you feel insecure at times. Scared that you will lose him. Afraid that you're not good enough for him. Fearful that he will stop loving you. It's normal to feel that way i guess. Human nature.

I really don't know. I like the way my life is right now. Singlehood. Go wherever I want. Do whatever I wish to do. No burdens. No responsibilities. Maybe cos i'm tired of chasing after all these love stuff. if it is going to come, nothing is going to be able to stop it. Love IS after all something that you can't force or push away. I just hope when it happens to me, it's going to be a happy thing. Not something that makes you feel pain everyday.