My Johari and Nohari window - please go and have a look and say what you think of me.

Got this from Zhihui - really interesting. Lets u have an idea of what your friends think of you and how it compares to what you think of yourself.

So far in the Johari window (the positive you) - I'm accepting, friendly, idealistic, independent, reflective, religious (courtesy of Zhihui - thanks for saying I'm independent!! and I seriously didn't know I was religious.... I wanted to put down at first but then I thought "I can't put it down what. It's not me - I'm not that devoted to God.") Thanks to Zhihui for thinking so highly of me.. haha...

Please visit http://kevan.org/johari?name=XiutingYu to describe me in my Johari window.

And in the Nohari window (the negative you), I'm insecure, panicky, timid, simple, cynical (also courtesy of Zhihui - but I didn't know I was timid.... Hmm... bff, from what did you observe about me that you think is timid? tell me leh.. haha... and am i cynical? from what i know cynical means always thinking of mankind as hopeless.. I'm simple meh? haha... think i'm a very complex person.... not simple and innocent as you think I am.. but anyways that's your opinion of me so I have to accept - but just curious why u think i'm timid...)

Please visit http://kevan.org/nohari?name=XiutingYu for my Nohari window. Thanks a million!

One Hour of Sleep makes your eyes look like the Panda in the ZoOoOoOoo..

Haha... I think I'm drunk, no i'm in delirium... no i'm in a dream.... yeah... all because of a test that i had to take today and what a big joke - hahaha - the test was not hard at all and i stayed up all night just to study for it.. i barely had an hour's sleep. i'm gonna have to go and sleep for all i can later...

mood: hungry and sleepy and a bit delirious...
currently doing: can't think....

Hey...

haven blog for a long long time... had school today... started at 10 am and ended around 3 - was running around photocopying stuff and attending tutorials.. just feel very tired.. and i got a 64 out of 75 for my abnormal psychology which just sucks. i was expecting to get higher. i tot i saw a 71 but it was someone else's... Aww man... i thought I studied enough and the questions were so damn easy and I stayed up until 4am taking all the quizzes given in the website. haiz.. guess i have to try harder in the next quiz. hopefully i'll get better news from my stats quiz. better get 12/12 or else i'll be very disappointed. now i feel so drained.. and yah gr8 luck i'm in the same class as gladys for issues in developmental psychology but luckily she didn't come today. hopefully she doesn't come forever.

mood: dying... tired...
currently doing: about to drop my head off

You are beautiful no matter what others say or what your face looks like.

Hey Zhihui,

I'm writing this to tell you that I'm not angry with what you wrote, but was just a little offended but I got over it. Please don't feel bad cos yah ur right - ur the type who would agree unconditionally to your friends - which is one of the reasons that makes you so amiable. But please don't think you're ugly cos you are very beautiful okay - pimples are just a phase of our lives - it will pass by soon - your friends and family love you not because of your face but because of your heart (this comes from the bottom of my heart). Hope you can cheer up soon and be ready to face what's going to come next.

Love you lots, my BESTEST FRIEND FOREVER / My dearest BFF

10 Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit
Not even at all

I heard this poem from the female lead in "10 Things I Hate About You". She wrote it and read it in front of her class, in front of her boyfriend. It was meant for him. I guess she's telling him that despite the fact that he has so many bad points that she doesn't like about him, she wants him back. It's one of the nicest, most straightforward poems that I've ever read.

I saw "Fun with Dick and Jane" yesterday after my Abnormal Psy quiz. By myself. Pathetic huh? Many people may think so. But I think it's okay. I always hang out by myself anyway. It was a funny show. Love Jim Carrey. The show reminded me of how much I liked this actor.

Another thing - Zhihui, I know you said "don't be offended by my blog" - I tried not to but fact is I am. I didn't say it out straightaway last week cos I know you were feeling very moody. Well, today's already Tuesday. So I'm guessing that you should be feeling better by now. I'm telling you this: I really don't mind the fact that you didn't want to watch the movie with me. But don't say it as if I needed you to watch it with me. You said this, "I realised that i dont have the capacity to attend to each and every of my frens' needs". I don't NEED you to watch it with me. It was just a suggestion. And yes I totally agree with the fact that you need time for yourself. You should take time off. But please don't ever say that again.

To Zhihui

Hey gal, since you don't want ppl to sms/call you, so I guess this is the only way I can communicate with you cos I almost wandered too far off during Stats class about thinking whether I should give you a surprise visit at your house after reading your blog. But I thought maybe doing so will give you even more pressure so I didn't. But I needed to say something. I know you're in a bad mood now. Not watching the movies is okay - I just mentioned it since we haven't watched one together 4 sometime. Take time off for yourself. Take care.

:) ting

I Might as well become FROZEN.

When you open up too much of your heart and your feelings along with your blood flow out too much - you'll find that all these things are lost. So I thought maybe it would be a better idea if I freeze my heart and become cold to any kind of feeling. That way you wouldn't let yourself get hurt since you're hard and no one can hurt you. What a great idea! FROZEN.

mood: none since I'm ice.
currently doing: FROZEN to the ground.