Dear Lord,

I just went through the previous entries of this diary and realised how much has happened in my life. No matter how bad the problems were, on hindsight now, I find that they are all defeated by You. Oh Lord, I thank you God for helping me solve my problems with Mummy although I still feel that she compares me to my other 2 sisters. And of course, I have to thank You for creating 2 miracles in my life. I know they are miracles because I couldn’t have achieved such good results if not for You.

An account of these two miracles: (For me to remember by when I’m old and frail)

1st miracle – the ‘A’ Levels (5th July 2004)

I was very excited, nervous and yet scared all at once when I reached the school. I was walking towards the hall while calling Mum on the phone. I asked her to pray for me and while she did, tears were squeezing their way out of my eyes. I was even trembling, I felt like my legs had no strength and my butt wanted to sit down. Then finally, I took a deep breath and walked to the hall.

I saw Mr Young (my civics tutor) and he asked me to take up the uni catalogues and school yearbook and to sign on a piece of paper. Immediately after he handed me my ‘A’ Levels result slip and I was trying to look at the scores and then finally realised what I was really looking at. A, B, B & B3!! I thought I was looking at the wrong paper so I checked for my name and then finally screamed and cried like hell!! I wanted to get out of the hall and call my mum but me friend caught hold of me and asked me about my results. I gave her a smile and she immediately hugged me and jumped with me… haha… I really couldn’t believe my eyes… thank God…

The 2nd miracle: The SAT I

I was at home yesterday (6th July) and came out of the bathroom when I saw some letter on the table… I was looking through them for the SAT letter and saw it upon the touching the letters. Tearing the envelope furiously, I felt déjà vu because I dreamt of that very scene before. As I looked at the percentage of my scores 81 and 89… I mistook those numbers as my scores, and I thought I had failed the SAT, and this was further “confirmed” (I thought, haha…) by the words “N/A” next to the percentages. But I took a closer look and immediately shrieked! 610 & 670! Arghh!! 1280!! Arghh!! Finally I got a score above 1200 after trying for the 3rd time!! Thank God!! Miracle siah!!

Thank God for everything. Thank You so so so so so much… I think I really can never thank You enough… wish I can do something for You… to repay all that You’ve done… Thanks once again…

Your little girl,
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