i think i get misunderstood a lot by people.

I really do. Seriously. especially guys. i dunno why. I've got a really strong feeling that some people think that i'm lesbian?? and some guys think that i've taken a fancy to them. it's true - some guy at work - You know what? Seriously.. i've no time to do all these stuff anymore. time is now all dedicated to work, fun, family, friends and earrings. like this colleague said - where got time to think abt BGR? and it's really really vey tiring to play mind games.. and i no longer have the strength to do that anymore.. getting too old. or maybe i'm just losing faith in love.

now all i want to do is to repair a spoilt friendship that had never started in the first place. and probably will never be alright cos that other party probably thinks i'm crazy, annoying or even stalking him.... which is really bugging me cos i want to explain things but i just don't dare to. and probably that person has already blocked me on MSN. dunno whether i shld try talking again. well.. maybe i'll try later and if der's no reply or msg can't be sent over then it's confirmed that i'm considered a stalker and blocked on MSN by that person.

I'm on leave tmr and tuesday cos of the CORS bidding for modules.. hopefully will get the rest of the 3 modules.. want to take one more module even tho only have to take 5 cos i think 6 modules keeps me on my toes like last semester. will be gng to sch tmr first thing in the morning to get the bill for the semester to apply for the study grant like previous semesters...

sometimes i think my brain messes with me a lot - makes me think of things that aren't even there. and my ultra sensitivity to words makes it even worse.

ok trying right now to repair that thing... maybe will update later.

**whew.. everything's fine now.. finally no more awkwardness.. my ultra sensitivity to words better don't mess up my mind again.