Headache is getting worse. feel like fainting today.

Today was a very busy day.. had to take over ordering stocks for Crystal today. the phone next to me on the desk - i think er... is my best friend right now cos i made so many phone calls more than i ever did in my life b4...

then work til around 4 plus pm when i felt like fainting and vomitting. went to the toilet in case i really vomitted.. dunno why like that.. maybe too much stress bah.. when i was feeling like fainting, my surroundings like in a whirl... got so many purchase orders to issue.. got so many ppl and suppliers to contact.. got so much work to do.. i want to clear everything all at once but just cannot. there's like 3 piles of stuff on my table right now.. can just picture them right now despite the fact that i'm not der now..

but happy that i have this job cos i can learn many things.. not just work stuff but how you handle interpersonal skills.. i was surprised to hear this following thing from my lady boss on Monday when she was teaching me something. i was trying to fix this stupid printer then she came along and found that i wasted lots of invoice paper cos the printer settings weren't right.. and she was like "wah... for 4 invoices waste so many ah.. 10 cents each leh" in a joking tone, laughing along with me.. then she said "if you don't know anything must ask.. colleagues will teach you but won't teach you everything, will leave a little for themselves. and this kind of phenomenon always happens one.. but it won't be for the good of the company." Then i replied "Office politics right?" Then she was "Yah, correct." I seriously seriously didn't think that my boss would detect anything about her employees cos she didn't say and i didn't ask anything too. but since she's a smart lady i guess she would know about us and not just be busy with her work... i do know about all these stuff and some of the gossip that's been going ard but so far i don't really want to pass judgment cos i see that there's nothing wrong with that person. just want to do my work well and see that my hard work pays off. no point in being angry with other ppl also. just don't assume that every little mistake is mine.

gng to slp now.. can't take it anymore. hope i don't have to smell that body odour again tmr on top of all the stress that i have.. or else i'll really can't tahan anymore and faint right there and then.